This quarter spent in Humanities Core was one of numerous ups and a few downs. Lecture felt somewhat less organized compared to Fall quarter, though the discussion was a very nice change of pace compared to the last. My writing has vastly improved over the course of the quarter due to the exercises and tests performed for hum core. If I could, I would advise my past self on several matters to make things a bit easier on myself. This quarter has several points that deserve to be commented on, in both positive and negative lights.
The lectures of this quarter felt very different from those of the previous quarter. From Professor Fahs to Professor Szalay, the majority of the lectures took on an air of aloofness in regards to the material. Many a class was spent regarding things that were only loosely tied in with texts or films that we dealt with. For instance, Professor Fahs’s lecture on her father and the position of homosexual men during the great war felt very loosely involved with the events of the civil war and Frederick Douglass. We also saw Professor Lazo only touch upon “The Official Story” when it was a major film in the course of the quarter. Discussion, however, often made amends for this. Discussion often was very smooth, interactive, and cleared up any misconceptions that lecture created.
My writing has also vastly improved over the quarter. Whereas my first hum core paper received a C+, I have put my nose to the grindstone and managed to earn very solid B+’s in place of that. I legitimately enjoyed moving from blog post to blog post, from text to text, and seeing a heightened sense of textual awareness that I hadn’t yet discovered. I began to write short stories again with my new found confidence that I had gained from my persistence, and I look upon them with pride. If anything, my writing has excelled to greater heights than it has known in any time previous.
If I could travel back in time, through some manner or means beyond my knowledge, I would tell myself quite a few things. I would tell him to stop being lazy and try to take better care to note what goes on in his books. I would tell him to ask more questions in discussion and that he should write more. I would tell him that, above all else, he needs to like what he writes and to be confidant in how he writes. I would bestow him a plethora of other, lesser pieces of knowledge, but those are irrelevant to the point. If I could travel back to some moment, I would emphasize that I need to just try harder and keep moving forward.
All in all, this quarter is deemed as a success. Despite the chaotic lecture format, the discussions were interesting and enlightening. My writing is better than ever, and I am writing like there shall be no tomorrow. And even if I couldn’t go back in time to advise myself, I still think that the me of yesterday did the best he could and I wouldn’t have it any other way.